Therapist Anxiety

I’m finding it difficult to be inspired right now. My belly is too full of the oatmeal and cherries I ate to stave off compulsive eating this morning, and my eyelids are heavy from the sleep they are not enjoying. I sit, absently, staring out my window, sipping diet coke and swallowing morning meds. I want to go back to bed, sleep until my neck starts hurting, then get up and take a long hot bath. My motivation is lagging and I’m feeling anxious.

T anxiety. Hoping she will receive, read and respond to an email. Hoping she will get the message that I won’t be available tomorrow for a scheduled phone call. Wondering if she might call today. Or this weekend. Or not until next week. And, of course, I am counting. Counting the days until my next appointment. But oops, we didn’t schedule one.

Our anxiety does not empty tomorrow of its sorrows, but only empties today of its strengths.  ― Charles H. Spurgeon

 Stay strong -